Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Jesus is Greater!

 I remember one night before I was set free from fear and worry, I had heart trouble and had been in the ER many times, was cardioverted twice (shocked back in rhythm), thought I was going to die everyday for years, and was on all kinds of medication. This night, I was laying down, being tormented when something came in my room, I could not see it, but the presence in the room was sickening. All of a sudden, I felt something wrap around my bones and then my heart felt as if it would stop. I could not move, I tried to get my wife's attention, but had no strength to do it. I pushed up a little, but it took every ounce of energy inside to do it. I finally just said, "Well Lord, I guess it is just my time to go."
The next thing I knew, something else flew in my room, but this time their was a presence of power and love with it. Something grabbed the thing that wrapped around my body and pulled him off and carried him out of the room. I know now it was an angel, but at that time, I was in too much darkness to even understand why the Lord would save me from this situation. I laid there and cried and said, "Lord, why did you save me?"
You see, I had been decieved by the enemy that I had blasphemed the Holy Ghost. It's funny, my pastor said to me one day when I had mentioned to him that I thought I had blasphemed the Holy Ghost, He said, "Well, do you ever get convicted?" I said, "Well no" He said, "Do you ever feel bad about anything, when you do something wrong?" I said, "All the time." I still didn't get it, I was so deceived, you see if a person does not have the Holy Spirit, they would not feel bad about anything,  But, on March 13, 2011 I was sitting in a church service, and the Holy Ghost and power decended upon me and I have been free from those things ever since, Glory to God. I will never go back to doubt and unbelief that Jesus loves me, I am convinced that nothing will ever seperate me from His love. My pastor always says, "You can never mess up Jesus love, but His love, if you let it, can mess you up." This is so true, I had the hardest time forgiving myself when I messed up, but Jesus, once I confessed it, He couldn't remember it.  Since March 13th, I haven't remembered anything that I have done either, am I greater than God, if He doesn't remember it, I definately am not going to remember it.  Jesus is Greater!